Failures hard but success is far more dangerous. If you are successful at the wrong thing, the mix of money and praise can lock you in forever. -Annonymous
Sunday, March 21, 2010
4 Years Later...
Well Well Well, look who it is! Yea, I know, its been 4 years.. But, I am back. No one reads this... yet.
So lots has happened in 4 years.. Michael Jackson, Farrah Fawcet and Patrick Swayze have died. The US has a African American President.. And I am engaged.
Engaged is the word of the year. It has heavy meaning. Like the word "married", it means I am going to spend the rest of my life with you.. But, being engaged is like your last chance to cancel.. (Other than divorce, which is way to common now a days). Engagement might as well be called "The Trial Run".. And honestly, its great, but along with the fact that you are committing to love this person, through hockey, olympics and farts, you also have the stress of planning a wedding.
The big day is Aug 14. I have soo much to do.. And not enough time. And its not the big things. It's the little things. Like, making sure the DJ announces the specific dance songs, or, .... SEE! I don't even know.
Vegas is starting to look good right about now.
Thats all I have to post right now.. I will have some huge rants about work..
Well Well Well, look who it is! Yea, I know, its been 4 years.. But, I am back. No one reads this... yet.
So lots has happened in 4 years.. Michael Jackson, Farrah Fawcet and Patrick Swayze have died. The US has a African American President.. And I am engaged.
Engaged is the word of the year. It has heavy meaning. Like the word "married", it means I am going to spend the rest of my life with you.. But, being engaged is like your last chance to cancel.. (Other than divorce, which is way to common now a days). Engagement might as well be called "The Trial Run".. And honestly, its great, but along with the fact that you are committing to love this person, through hockey, olympics and farts, you also have the stress of planning a wedding.
The big day is Aug 14. I have soo much to do.. And not enough time. And its not the big things. It's the little things. Like, making sure the DJ announces the specific dance songs, or, .... SEE! I don't even know.
Vegas is starting to look good right about now.
Thats all I have to post right now.. I will have some huge rants about work..
Thursday, September 28, 2006
WOW!!!!
I can't believe this blog is still working! Its been forever.. It shows my last post ast Feb 15 2005! Thats well over a year.. and soo has happened. I wouldnt even know where to begin.
Im sure no one reads this now. However, I am going to post from now on. I enjoyed when it I did it. And now, as I look back on previous posts, I realize how much I relied on this blog to express emotions! Also, when I look back on the posts where I was upset and crying I realized that I don't even remember why I was upset and makes me feel great to think how much I have overcome.
SWEET! lol
So, im living in Cape Breton again. I live in sydney with my roomie but moving into a place in Glace Bay with my boyfriend Dave. We've been together now over a year I guess. Pretty neat stuff.
Right now, I have an unhealthy obsession with Waynes World. Its by far, the funniest movie made. Mike Myers and Dana Carvey are genius! I am driving my friends crazy with quotes and voices, but I don't care. I still laugh, and thats whats important.. Right? Excellent!
My dad was just down for a visit. Which was really nice. Spent some time with him and his woman. Did some shopping.. Met Dave.. (seems to like him) All in all, its been a good time lol.
I will try and update some more later.. Im at work :)
Salut!
I can't believe this blog is still working! Its been forever.. It shows my last post ast Feb 15 2005! Thats well over a year.. and soo has happened. I wouldnt even know where to begin.
Im sure no one reads this now. However, I am going to post from now on. I enjoyed when it I did it. And now, as I look back on previous posts, I realize how much I relied on this blog to express emotions! Also, when I look back on the posts where I was upset and crying I realized that I don't even remember why I was upset and makes me feel great to think how much I have overcome.
SWEET! lol
So, im living in Cape Breton again. I live in sydney with my roomie but moving into a place in Glace Bay with my boyfriend Dave. We've been together now over a year I guess. Pretty neat stuff.
Right now, I have an unhealthy obsession with Waynes World. Its by far, the funniest movie made. Mike Myers and Dana Carvey are genius! I am driving my friends crazy with quotes and voices, but I don't care. I still laugh, and thats whats important.. Right? Excellent!
My dad was just down for a visit. Which was really nice. Spent some time with him and his woman. Did some shopping.. Met Dave.. (seems to like him) All in all, its been a good time lol.
I will try and update some more later.. Im at work :)
Salut!
Sunday, February 13, 2005
Ack!
I took this lil quiz thing.. Im mostly not trusting the results.. Except for the songs.. Which is HILARIOUS!
Anyways.. yeah..
• Matt is the one that you love.
• Gary is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about Lauren.
• Noelle is the one who knows you very well.
• Adam is your lucky star.
• My Everything is the song that matches with Matt.
• Whats up star is the song for Gary.
• Hotel California is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and My Happy Ending is the song telling you how you feel about life
Heres the link if you would to take it! http://www.comclub.org/lj/fsquiz.php
~*kiss*~
I took this lil quiz thing.. Im mostly not trusting the results.. Except for the songs.. Which is HILARIOUS!
Anyways.. yeah..
• Matt is the one that you love.
• Gary is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about Lauren.
• Noelle is the one who knows you very well.
• Adam is your lucky star.
• My Everything is the song that matches with Matt.
• Whats up star is the song for Gary.
• Hotel California is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and My Happy Ending is the song telling you how you feel about life
Heres the link if you would to take it! http://www.comclub.org/lj/fsquiz.php
~*kiss*~
Jealousy
Well, I don't know how to say this.. but im guilty of having regular human emotion! I am jealous! I don't know what of, and its probably my own stupid imagination running wild in my head.. but im jealous.. and envious. My head is ever so confused and I don't know why. Were you ever jealous of someone having something but you have/had it before? Well, for the first time.. I am. I had something years ago.. and let it go.. I won't get into the specifics only to save my own ass.. and not to be embarrased.. but.. I just need to admit my jealous-ness. I don't understand why I am jealous.. or envy their situation because I had it and got rid of it.. SO WHY?? Maybe thats always the way that it goes.. I dunno.. im no expert on relationships or emotions.. But I wish I was so I could understand it. However, i'm sure I will get over it. Maybe its because of everything that has happened recently in my life that I just want some happiness... ack! I dunno.. Im only looking for excuses.. Nothing seems to give me joy anymore.. Which is terrible. None the less, I shall continue on lifes journey with the hopes that someday, Simpsons and Family Guy will no longer be my source of joy.. And they are only on for 30 mins.. so 30 mins out of 24 hours just plain sucks... I miss my friends.. and my friends kids.. and my neice.. and my regular everyday bull-shit that I could cope with.
On another note, I would like to express my fear of Ontario drivers. They, still don't measure up to the insane drivers of Quebec. But, people in Ontario, specifically Toronto, think that they are on the run ALL THE TIME!! In and out of lanes just because it gets them 2 feet ahead of the person in front of them... And talking on their cell phones going 140 down the 401 is good idea.. not. anyways.. Im outta here!!!!
~*kiss*~
Well, I don't know how to say this.. but im guilty of having regular human emotion! I am jealous! I don't know what of, and its probably my own stupid imagination running wild in my head.. but im jealous.. and envious. My head is ever so confused and I don't know why. Were you ever jealous of someone having something but you have/had it before? Well, for the first time.. I am. I had something years ago.. and let it go.. I won't get into the specifics only to save my own ass.. and not to be embarrased.. but.. I just need to admit my jealous-ness. I don't understand why I am jealous.. or envy their situation because I had it and got rid of it.. SO WHY?? Maybe thats always the way that it goes.. I dunno.. im no expert on relationships or emotions.. But I wish I was so I could understand it. However, i'm sure I will get over it. Maybe its because of everything that has happened recently in my life that I just want some happiness... ack! I dunno.. Im only looking for excuses.. Nothing seems to give me joy anymore.. Which is terrible. None the less, I shall continue on lifes journey with the hopes that someday, Simpsons and Family Guy will no longer be my source of joy.. And they are only on for 30 mins.. so 30 mins out of 24 hours just plain sucks... I miss my friends.. and my friends kids.. and my neice.. and my regular everyday bull-shit that I could cope with.
On another note, I would like to express my fear of Ontario drivers. They, still don't measure up to the insane drivers of Quebec. But, people in Ontario, specifically Toronto, think that they are on the run ALL THE TIME!! In and out of lanes just because it gets them 2 feet ahead of the person in front of them... And talking on their cell phones going 140 down the 401 is good idea.. not. anyways.. Im outta here!!!!
~*kiss*~
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Yep
So, this is going to be a bunch of jumbled thoughts.. just to clear my head..
So, this is going to be a bunch of jumbled thoughts.. just to clear my head..
Im sittin here in tears.. wondering why people do the things they do? Im not going to get into anything personal, but it absolutely boggles my mind at why someone would intentionally set out to hurt someones feelings or ruin their day. My whole life I have always tried to do the right thing. I never intemntionally hurt someone.. always did what my parents told me.. never did anything harshly illegal.. and I still am shit on everyday.. I try sooo hard to be a good person... Am I doing something wrong? Right now its kind of hard to think of the good things that have happened in my life as I sit here feeling the worst I think I have ever felt. So much dissapointment and frusteration is running through my head right now that it hurts to even look at this screen and read these words of depression and sadness.
I started this paragraph 3 times over already and get a few sentences down and erase it? Why? Cause im so scared to show any true feelings.. so scared of people judging me for any reason at all. I hate people that put other people down just to make themselves feel better.. I guess thats how it works.. bah! Girls are caddy too.. I hate being a girl and getting that title.. I have never messed with anyones head.. nor have I intentionally told some chick bullshit about her man to get himm.. or that aggrivates me.. The more I try to think of ways to make myself happier the more depressed and sad I get. Theres no resolution for lifes problems.. I always wonder if anyone else is as unhappy as me? Do they just say they are unhappy? Are they more unhappy and don't know it? I have always been a firm believer in "Everything happens for a reason".. I am starting to doubt that.. I try to be optimistic.. and believe the best of the people around me.. but I think it would be better now if I was just pessimistic and didn't get my hopes up.. that way, theres no let downs... Im 21 and I already feel like I have been through soo much.. but I know there is soo much more to come.. I don't know how the hell I am gonna handle it.
Bye for meow.
Thursday, February 03, 2005
Long time no write!
Well... I know no one comes here but thats ok cause now I just am gonna write here for my own sake! I live in Ontario now.. and Its not all that bad.. I have a few friends here now but I really miss home and can't wait to go back. Ahh... yeah.. Hrmm.. I have a lot to say but fear of who might acctually stop by stops me from writting my true feelings and story about my life and what has recently happened.. but thats ok.. the people that matter know..
I work at a call centre now.. which sucks cause I really didn't want to work at another call centre. I applied at some stores at the local mall and hopefully I can get a good job there as its a little less stressfull ( I find anyways ) .
I was home for a week last week which was sooo nice.. I really had to get that out of my system.. to see my friends and my neice.. and all the kids! It was soo nice.. I didn't really realize how much those kids mean to me and how happy I am when they are around. Kids are soo innocent and sweet.
Bah.. thats all for now.. more tomorrow.. I have some lyrics I would like to put on here... so thats a project for later!
Well... I know no one comes here but thats ok cause now I just am gonna write here for my own sake! I live in Ontario now.. and Its not all that bad.. I have a few friends here now but I really miss home and can't wait to go back. Ahh... yeah.. Hrmm.. I have a lot to say but fear of who might acctually stop by stops me from writting my true feelings and story about my life and what has recently happened.. but thats ok.. the people that matter know..
I work at a call centre now.. which sucks cause I really didn't want to work at another call centre. I applied at some stores at the local mall and hopefully I can get a good job there as its a little less stressfull ( I find anyways ) .
I was home for a week last week which was sooo nice.. I really had to get that out of my system.. to see my friends and my neice.. and all the kids! It was soo nice.. I didn't really realize how much those kids mean to me and how happy I am when they are around. Kids are soo innocent and sweet.
Bah.. thats all for now.. more tomorrow.. I have some lyrics I would like to put on here... so thats a project for later!
Sunday, October 24, 2004
No Idea
I don't know whats going on in my life right now.. I wish that this blog was annoymous.. I would really like to write how I am feeling right now... Its just so private and I have no other ideas on how to express my hurt and dissapointment in my life right now.. It's very hard to beme right now. I don't know how to decide what is best for me at this point in my life.. I feel so alone. All my friends are back home and I have no one. The one person I am supposed to trust right now is really making me think twice.. I wish I could look at my situation from an different angle.. Just kinda step back and glance with no prejiduce on the situation.. Blah.. I wish I had someone here to hug and tell me things will work out.. I can't cry anymore.. All outta tears. :(
I don't know whats going on in my life right now.. I wish that this blog was annoymous.. I would really like to write how I am feeling right now... Its just so private and I have no other ideas on how to express my hurt and dissapointment in my life right now.. It's very hard to beme right now. I don't know how to decide what is best for me at this point in my life.. I feel so alone. All my friends are back home and I have no one. The one person I am supposed to trust right now is really making me think twice.. I wish I could look at my situation from an different angle.. Just kinda step back and glance with no prejiduce on the situation.. Blah.. I wish I had someone here to hug and tell me things will work out.. I can't cry anymore.. All outta tears. :(
Thursday, October 21, 2004
WooHoo!
Yesterday and today were great days! Good day to be me! I will get right to the point as I have no way to calm down my excitement!
There is a new addition to my little home here... thats right... I hear the pitter patter of little feet... 4 of em to be exact.. I got a kitty!! Hehe.. He is sooo cute.. I fell in love with him right away.. Hes black and white.. and just the cutest thing ever! Jimmy likes him too he says... Just as long as he doesn't scratch the furniture.. To which I replied.. Just don't piss him off.. The cat shall run the show! I can't believe how well he fits in here. My friend Jayme came with me when I got him and she said that her 2 cats took a few days to settle in. Mine was here for only an hour and was right at home! Meant to be I say! Its weird how you can fall in right in love so quick with an animal, but with the opposite sex its so freakin confusing haha... The kitten has no choice to but to love me! Their innocense really comes out eh? Blows my mind sometimes.. but its nice to have an animal around the appartment.. really makes it feel a little more like home.
Well, unfortunatly I have to go to bed.. I get up at 5:30am to drive Jimmy to work. Apparently, people are up at this time of day. I had no idea there was a 5:30am.. Let alone a 4:30am which is what time he gets up. Crazyness I say.. Have a good one folks! I don't know who still reads this.. but im gonna post either way!
Yesterday and today were great days! Good day to be me! I will get right to the point as I have no way to calm down my excitement!
There is a new addition to my little home here... thats right... I hear the pitter patter of little feet... 4 of em to be exact.. I got a kitty!! Hehe.. He is sooo cute.. I fell in love with him right away.. Hes black and white.. and just the cutest thing ever! Jimmy likes him too he says... Just as long as he doesn't scratch the furniture.. To which I replied.. Just don't piss him off.. The cat shall run the show! I can't believe how well he fits in here. My friend Jayme came with me when I got him and she said that her 2 cats took a few days to settle in. Mine was here for only an hour and was right at home! Meant to be I say! Its weird how you can fall in right in love so quick with an animal, but with the opposite sex its so freakin confusing haha... The kitten has no choice to but to love me! Their innocense really comes out eh? Blows my mind sometimes.. but its nice to have an animal around the appartment.. really makes it feel a little more like home.
Well, unfortunatly I have to go to bed.. I get up at 5:30am to drive Jimmy to work. Apparently, people are up at this time of day. I had no idea there was a 5:30am.. Let alone a 4:30am which is what time he gets up. Crazyness I say.. Have a good one folks! I don't know who still reads this.. but im gonna post either way!
